Finished my 3rd book

Well I know that I am late with this blog but I didn't want to make a blog until I was done with the book that I was reading. I just finished reading Go Ask Alice & Honestly im in straight shock.... So many things happened within the last 100 pages that I'm just so in shock at how the book ended that I'm actually sad about it. While reading the book I was actually proud of her for being strong & wanting to better herself and realizing that a life with drugs included isn't actually living life, Yes I know you get the thrill of it for that moment but once its gone what do you have left? nothing because you end up right back where you started! As the ending of the book was getting closer & closer she seemed like she was getting stronger & stronger & growing as a young girl which made me happy because her falling into the hands of drugs ruined her life completely. I think she was very lucky to have such a supportive family who never left her side & which were probably one of her biggest motivations. The end of the book ended good in my eyes it was all positive thoughts and her having a smarter view of things and being more mature about how she would handle her problems in the future & I was perfectly fine with that. Until I turned the page & saw that there was a small paragraph that looked like it was the actual ending of the book & when I read it I truly felt sad... Bc she ended up dying yet no one knows how & no one will ever know now...  But like the last sentence in the book says "What must be of concern is that she died, and that she was only one of thousands of drug deaths that year." 

1st blog , Last quarter :-)

I'm still reading Go Ask Alice , I'm on page 114. I'm literally over how stupid this young girl is like does she not learn from her mistakes ? You'd think that she does but she doesn't and she is so dumb for that I can't. Some how she ends up leaving her house again and guess what? just guess .... ok enough i'll tell you SHE ENDS UP IN THE HANDS OF DRUGS again that's when I really lost it with this book , Because how dumb can you be you know what it does to you she is aware of how bad it is yet she will throw everything to the side and still do it. Since she leaves her house again she finds this fourteen year old girl who is going threw the same problem with her who has been rapped , harassed and everything else but yet she still puts drugs and that wavy feeling over her family who takes her in with open arms regardless. 

That picture describes how I feel every time that I see that she goes back to drugs then regrets it,wants her family but picks drugs over her family where she had it all literally... 

3rd make up blog

OMG I knew it I told you guys. I knew that moving to a different place wasn't going to stop her from doing it because guess what? she got close to a girl out there & they started hanging out & the girl played with them got them taking so many drugs & the girls boyfriend even took turns rapping her & her friend Chris... Honestly these two girls are really getting no where in life because now they want to leave again & do another promise to not to drugs but lets face it ... they're way too late. So they both went back home & their families were so ok & fine with them just disappearing for no reason & coming back days before Christmas like I don't understand ... Let me leave my house for a month then call my mom & tell her i'm going back like nothing she'd probably kill me so I just can't understand how ok her family is about this  but I guess that explains a lot also ! 

This picture was litefally my face when i read how ok her family was about just re uniting again with her daughter after she left with out saying a word!!! Talk about crazy.  

Another make up :-)

May the lord give me the strenght to continue & read this book because I want to punch this girl in the face. Ok so she basically ran away with her friend because she thought that moving somewhere far would like distract her mind & off course not have her thinking about drugs... Well she left and is now living in a crappy apartment with her friend searching for jobs left & right and seems to have a lot of trouble with it. But I mean off course she is going to have trouble she is a freaking 15 year old who basically ran away from home because she made a stupid dicisions and now doesn't know how to deal with them like someone let me know why a 15 year old is away from home with her friend in a one bedroom place ... sharing a bathroom with other people with no job & not enough money to maintain theirself oh lord.  

The picture describes how she feels once she realizes that she wants to go back home to her family but she can't...